Brutal Mentality

Last time I was brutaly honest about my situation in life, that I am in fact fat. As far as I am concerned it is not a hinder or an obsitcle to be fat as long as you want to be, but if you cross the line and realize; Crap, I dont wanna be a fat person all my life, then it is a living hell, a form of eternal torture. I believe with all my heart that the fatness is not just outside it is inside too. I know from personal everyday experience that I dont have enough motivation at times to shake the inner mental picture of me being fat, so as a result of that I stay that way. Does that make sense?

We all go through days when we feel like we are on top of the world, anything can happen, we are the best of the best and that is just fact. But then we all go through days when everything is horrible and not so good as we thought it was, call it w wake-up call if you like. I had one yesterday. My whole internal world collapsed and I realize I wont be my true self unless I drop my fat suit and continue with my life free. Of course, I've had that thought before, I have lost weight before, but, this time the realization just hit me like a cold glass of whater in the face, I NEED to change my mental image of myself or I will never loose weight. I want to be a normal person, with a normal size of clothes and a great exterior as well as interior. In my last blog I wrote that I feel like a really hot athletic person inside, and I do, but my mental image of myself does not correspond with the feeling I have of myself. I figure that is one of my major problems. I need to get my inner image of myself to correspond with the feeling of me. Because right now the two are very different.

So, I have come to a conclusion. I can not let yet another opportunity pass me by and just ignore it, no, I need to face it. Im going to start working on my inner image, be brutal in my aproach to my mentality of loosing weight and I will succeed with it!

Do join me in my search for a better and heathier life and lifestyle! I am greatful for the comments from the last blog and Im looking forward to reading more as we travel trhough life together!

Nathalie